Chris,
Hi. Don't be embarrassed by the issue and don't be afraid to talk about it. I went through a similar series of panic attacks a few years ago, starting with a big one where I was sure I was having a heart attack and that I was about to die.
I was having a difficult time socially, any place where it was busy, noisy just too much going on, all of a sudden panic would set in and I couldn't breath. Being on the motorcycle, wearing a helmet, all of these things would trigger the issue.
Even now I still sometimes get them, particularly on the motorcycle and particularly with left sweeping roads. Sometimes I will panic a bit and think I am going to ride off the road. Probably doesn't help that the last time we attended TNT, I almost did.
I chose to stick with it, be aware of the fact that I am prone to it and ride with the caution and knowledge that it could happen again. But I could definitely sympathize with anyone who decided to not take that risk.
Only you can decide whether or not it is a risk you want to take and how soon you want to take it again.
Best of luck to you. I know what you are going through and it can be frightening, frustrating and depressing at times. Stay strong and get your head right. You will know when, if ever, it is time to get back on the bike again.
- Sean
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From: Chris Peltz
Sent: Monday, July 24, 2017 3:35 PM
To: emrat@googlegroups.com
Subject: [emrat:9904] Checking in...
I don't normally get into too many personal things on this group, but I consider you my family and wanted to share an experience that I had this week during the Triumph in the Rockies. If you don't know me, you can delete this email. :)
First, I am safely back home, physically at least. However, during the trip, i experienced a set of extended panic attacks that started on the second day of the trip and lasted until I got home. These attacks manifested themselves in what I call an "endless loop" of one bad thought and nothing else...in this case, of crashing and killing myself, followed by the realization that I have to give up motorcycling if I make it back home in one piece. If any of you were on any part of a ride with me, you may have noticed I was a bit "off" (ok, more "off" than usual :) ), and it was related to this.
I hesitated in sending something to this group, but realized that part of my "loop" was having to face the embarrassment of what happened to me. I figured the best way to face that part of the fear was to get it out there in the open. I also wanted to ask for your prayers (if you believe or don't believe in any kind of deity) as I work through this. At this time, I am pretty shaken up and I don't know really know what's next...I will take it one day at a time.
It was great seeing many of you this weekend and I do hope I will be able to get back on a motorcycle soon. For now though, my well being is top priority and I have to do some soul searching to understand why this happened.
Thanks for listening!
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